a drink…maybe two

sounds really good right now; guess it’s good that I am pregnant and would never have one.  So what do I do when I am no longer preggers?  There must be a solution.  I did it for 13 months before, and almost 3 years a time before.  I plan on picking up right where I started after I have Vivian, I just know that it will be hard at times.

For me, to drink is to die, to lose my husband, to be a horrible mother, wife, friend, daughter, and sister.  When I think about having a drink, I immediately am reminded of all the horrible things that I would become and all the devastation it would bring.  Sometimes I just want something to feel better.  Guess that’s why it’s good to stay medicated; that however, isn’t an option at this time.

I think my obsession today with wishing I could drink something to make me feel better is because my back is KILLING me – mid to lower back muscles and my sciatic nerve.  I still have 3 more months or 12 weeks.  I cannot wait:)

So here I sit, at my laptop, listening to music, wishing to feel better.  Hopefully I’ll get more than 4 hours of sleep tonight.  I think I will try and get that ball rolling:)

Goodnight:)
Min