As the subtitle of my blog goes…stand by.

I’d give anything for a drink without consequence and a line without a down.  Unfortunately, neither will take away my problems, they will only create more.  I don’t have many days of temptation or days that walking down the beer and liquor aisle is a struggle; today was one of those days.

I drove around a bit before I went to the grocery store, just to clear my mind.  I drove by the bar where so many memories have been created and buried.  So many thoughts, feelings, and regrets went through my mind.  For the most part, I try to avoid seeing that place at all cost, but my addiction was calling me and it was longing for some sort of memory.  I don’t know if the mere driving by it satisfied it or not. 

Six more weeks as an RA and then the girl I was covering maternity for returns.  I feel that I am somewhat lamenting that day.  It’s as if I’d rather be there than more forward and upward.  I like being a child.  I like being myself.  These kids let me be myself and they respect me, because I put myself at their level and try to understand them.  Even at an age when we put up these facades they can see through me.  Adolescents are true to their feelings and they are real.  They haven’t quite gotten to these age of being “damaged” or “worn.”  I’d rather work with 100 adolescents than 10 adults.

Guess I had a lot on my mind.  Maybe I can put it into a song:)

Ciao,
Mindy